Question Queen on Royal Throne! asked: I have a college degree BA in Spanish, but still not fluent since they taught more ANCIENT literature than grammar conversation. I graduated in Aug. 2006 haven’t had much opportunity to study my Spanish or start on any new languages because of many crises in my life. I haven’t been employed since graduation, either. Been DYING for work, but I can only do jobs that won’t exceed my mental limitations give me an anxiety attack, then I get fired. That almost happened to me before graduation, when I was doing a federal work-study job through the school’s financial aid. My supervisor threatened to fire me, but luckily he didn’t. Before that, I worked a temp service job for 1 day, I have trouble standing on my feet for over 20 min., I had to struggle for 8 hrs. That wasn’t the reason why the woman fired me. She fired me because she overheard someone ask me why I twitch my face so much, I told her I have Tourette’s, the supervisor overheard it misunderstood what I said tried to accuse me of saying I have seizures, which I didn’t say. they told me they had to fire me because they couldn’t have anyone like that working for them.
Between Aug. 2006-April 2007, I tried to go to translation school @ New York University School of Continuing Professional Studies. Before I knew it, these people had me paying them $125/week to stay with them. They didn’t care about my SSI Social Security check coming late, they threw me out cold turkey. So, they put me in a mental health shelter gave me a false diagnosis had me go to these stupid, elementary school-like day programs that I KNOW I was too advanced for. they had me on the wrong meds, they wouldn’t let me work nor go to school.
Back in 2005 I went through Hurricane Katrina, but that was before graduation, but that experience the aftermath affected my grades. I could’ve graduated with a higher GPA earlier.
I suffer OCD, anxiety, depression, Tourette’s, I had 2 strokes @ age 5. In New York, they tried to say I was Bipolar put me on Depakote FORCED me against my will to take it under staff supervision, I got up to 304 lbs. @ the most.
I feel like the symptoms of my disorders the way people discriminate against treat me, is what caused a hold-back in my life. My depression OCD have been getting worse worse, the meds don’t help. I stay @ home try to study my Spanish independently, but I can’t because I’m always distracted by the unwanted, intrusive thoughts.
I feel like my desired career as a multilingual translator is gone because of me feeling behind. I have to start my Spanish from scratch. But I can’t concentrate or focus clearly.
I’m still single with no kids, my credit score probably is the lowest of the low, my student loan other debts are rocket high. I get anxiety attacks every day because I feel like all my daily tasks can’t be completed, even though I’m not working. I’m talking about tasks, like handling phone business calls or internet business e-mails, searching for jobs online or in person, cleaning up around the house, etc. I feel stuck in a ditch can’t get out.
What’s strange is, I may have a degree, but I don’t have many skills or much work experience, employers refuse to hire me because they think I’m retarded because of my obvious, uncontrollable anxiety that I can’t hide. I always have fear of failing the interview or being negatively judged.
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